Just got off the phone with my cousin. She has another person wanting to put in an order for Scentsy. I am really thankful for all her help with selling Scentsy for me. She does get great hostess rewards when she puts in an order. I just wish my compensation was better than it is now. I will keep trying though. If & when she decides she wants to stop trying to sell to her friends, then maybe I will stop also. I also wish we got compensated after each order immediately instead of having to wait for the 10th of each month.

My husband's car is just about out of gas & my car has about 50 miles left before its out of gas. I don't know what we are going to do. I don't know where to turn for assistance. I'm really thinking about getting state assistance, but I don't know where to go get it. I feel bad about even thinking about getting that type of help, but what are we going to do. We don't have any food left in the apartment. I still don't know how I'm going to pay rent.

I put in a Scentsy order, but it still hasn't shipped out. I pray my card goes through because all those people paid to get their stuff & I don't have the money to give back to them.

I really don't know what to do! We are not going to have enough to pay anyone this pay period. Please Lord, give me a break here.. I'm begging you, please..

Gave my hubby my last $1.57. We are really in bad shape. I really don't know where to turn. I'm still waiting for my tax return to come in, but that's not expected to be here for another 2 weeks or so.

It came to mind that I should be working as hard as I can to make money to keep in my bank account & to pay my bills. I know that we sometimes need to have some fun with the money we worked so hard to make, but I need to learn to not over spend. I know this lesson may have come at the wrong time, but I do need to learn it at some point. Better now than never... right?

I took the last of my blood pressure medication today. Again, I may not be able to get it for another 2 weeks. I'm really scared about not having the money to 1) pay back Advance America so I can re-loan & 2) even if I am able to re-loan, I won't have enough to pay rent.

Nearly Forty & no where near where I wanted to be at this stage of my life.

Money has been tight & really isn't getting any better with both our hours cut. I've had a throbbing headache for the past 3 day. I'm just about out of my blood pressure medication & I really don't know where to turn.

Lord, I'm almost certain you have forgotten about me or you're punishing me for something I did in my past. Lord, I beg your forgiveness. I know there are other people worse off than we are, but please Lord, help us too. I don't want to leave this world & leave my husband with all my bills. That's not fair to him. My husband is a very good man & I know I can learn a lot from him. Please give the chance to make life better for both of us. Please guide me so I make the right decisions for my life.